Is hunger simply a construct created in our cerebral cortex, laid bare by our limbic system or simply habituated by thousands of take away pizzas, stir fry green chickens or hommus, smeared liberally across crackers?
Is it simmered into our psyche like tomatoes and red wine and left to reside in a rich stew?
You can probably tell that, six week in to this diet thing and I am craving food. Anything really, a pious piece of pitta bread or a simple steak (medium rare of course).
But no, I embark on the second shake of the day, a careful decision as to what to have. Is it the "Flavors of the Forest" or plain "vanilla"? Both are distinctively different in taste and texture, especially when they are all you can have, you tend to pay attention to such differences. Is it the flannel familiarity of vanilla with it's plain resonance or the exotic coercion of fruits of the forest with it's decidedly disappointing delivery?
Well you see, I am getting low on the vanilla variety, and it i's a whole week to go before I can refill and refresh the pantry of shakes. What will I do?
I am counting out the shakes I have left, 6 vanilla 2 banana , 3 fruits of the forest. Zero, yes zero vegetable soup but a remarkable 10 sachets of mushroom soup.
Three weeks down and this is serious mum. How am I going to survive? Simply managing on four shakes a day is hard enough, but when you are down to the least favoured, the downright ordinary, the test is significant. I will stretch my remaining vanilla over the week savouring one a day and do my best to spice up the mushroom soup, remembering that there is only so many chilli flakes you can add without creating serious damage.
I continue in the knowledge that my new set of scales proudly declared me over 7 KG's down at my morning weigh in. I take this seriously, confidently and demonstrably standing on the scales like boxers do, wearing only my jocks.
7. 3 KG's down in just 3 weeks.
Perhaps the presence of hunger and sachets in my life ain't so bad after all. For now at least.
Alan Silcock - 15th August 2018